to or not to

i had an interview scheduled today.
i didn't go.

i was surprised to receive the call yesterday afternoon. surprised but not excited.
and i'm not worried that i didn't go.
i'm just wondering if the HR would ban me for not appearing there this morning.
it just did not feel right for me to undergo the interview.
hubby asked me 'why'.
i simply said, "hindi ako ready. feeling ko hindi pa ko ready."

what was i not ready for?
i'm ok with impromptu interviews. i like the rush of not knowing where to pull from the answers to all the interviewer's questions. i've pulled it off many times before.

was i not ready to leave the Magical World?? BUT WHY??
sabi nga ni mon, "you love the magical world? or uv got it all na?"
hindi ko alam kung nangaasar siya... pero that's exactly what i'm trying to figure out.
eh di ba halos isuka ko na tong magical world?

Boss, am i doing this right?
help!