Hey Big Boss,

I have so much to thank You for. Well, I guess You know that already -- right from the start. hehe Nevertheless, I want to thank You today.

Thank you, Boss, for saving me many times before and many times more in the future. Somehow everything turns out all right whenever I call You -- sometimes, as You are ever loyal and faithful to Your people, You are there even when I forget to call.

yesterday, i learned that a former very close friend could be budding an affair (again -- he doesn't learn!) with a new girl here in the office. 'our time' when i was new here suddenly flashed back to my mind -- how our friendship started, our fondness for each other's company (and maybe the occassional, innocent yet sinful flirtation), our conversations (including the malicious ones). i was also reminded of the time when i used to sneak out of the office para lang makasabay ako pauwi sa kanya or makasabay siyang pauwi saken. now i realize, kadiri pala. as in. i'm not being self-righteous (i am a sinful person, let me just tell you that i am very aware of that), pero yeeeelllch talaga. disgusting.

i questioned myself, 'if i wasn't doing anything wrong, why was i hiding, sneaking?'. it was like Adam and Eve in the garden after they've taken a bite of the forbidden fruit. they were sooo ashamed that they felt the need to hide from You.

my awakening came through other people -- their jokes, side comments and reactions helped. thank You. really. THANK YOU.

now, i know that that kind of friendship is wrong. maybe i am judgemental when i say they could be having a "budding affair". anyway, thanks for waking me up then and making me realize, a personal flirt is not worth the hassle! ;) not at all!

by the way, it's Ash Wednesday tomorrow. i'm really hoping i'd be able to confess and attend Holy Mass. make me.

i love you.