bitter

yesterday, i felt so bitter after learning that Asia is being hired by one the three big telecoms here in the PI. remember, when i was almost hired by the other big telecom company but it just didn't happen for me and i became pregnant? so it was really zero chances for me then. all that flashed back and i grew more envious of her luck. two days off and her compensation shoot up to a 50% increase. how lucky can she get? ..anyway, she deserves it. she gets annoying sometimes but yeah, she does work hard. and, she wants to see that hard work appreciated by her boss through words and of course, through monetary value. the girl knows what she wants, good for her. congratulations.

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again, i was envious. my frustration on "the plan" added more to it. turns out that the supposed to be "partner" isn't interested anymore. so, i guess i have to set "the plan" aside and consider "the evil plan" instead.. nyahahaha!

not.

after sleeping it over, i just realized that maybe it's not yet time for me to move up that level. maybe, contrary to the signs that i waited for and appeared -- i still need time to mature. the plan still needs to ripen.

i just need more faith to know that my plans will happen at the right time. maybe i still want to hurry, but i will rush no more.

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strange that this song was playing in my mind as i write this entry :p ..hmm, i can imagine Momon making fun of this while mimicking a girly gesture :p just like the "rush, rush..hurry, hurry, love come to me.." song LOL

Material Girl
Artist : Madonna

Some boys kiss me, some boys hug me
I think they're O.K.
If they don't give me proper credit
I just walk away
They can beg and they can plead
But they can't see the light, that's right
'Cause the boy with the cold hard cash
Is always Mister Right, 'cause we are

Chorus:
Living in a material world
And I am a material girl
You know that we are living in a material world
And I am a material girl

Some boys romance, some boys slow dance
That's all right with me
If they can't raise my interest then I
Have to let them be
Some boys try and some boys lie but
I don't let them play
Only boys who save their pennies
Make my rainy day, 'cause they are

[chorus]

Boys may come and boys may go
And that's all right you see
Experience has made me rich
And now they're after me, 'cause everybody's

[chorus]
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