detached

strange but, for the first time in many days, i suddenly feel ok (since last night). i feel comfortable. it seems that everything is alright. fleeting? i don't know and i don't care. it just seems that things are falling into the right places and despite of someone's existence, everything is........... light. :)

a clearing. the clouds seem to have cleared. finally, i am sure that all that there is, or was, is not true. it may be thought of or misread as genuine, but it's not. probably, that's the reason why it never felt right from the start. it never felt natural to have it. unlike the ones i have. unlike the ones i had. unlike the ones i left. unlike the ones who left and will return. and when they return, i know that nothing has changed.

i've found a silver lining to all of these and i thank God for letting me find it after many months of being subconsciously bothered by it. now i know that i don't need it because it's lethal. i don't need it. it needs me but i'm not letting it in again.

i'm detached. :)

~(^*^)~ Listening to Pupil's Disconnection Notice