friends

i wish i could tell a friend what i really think about her recent behavior, but i just think that we don't have the kind of friendship or closeness wherein i can diss her to hell and she won't even mind. actually, i do diss her sometimes, pero dinadaan ko sa biro para mild lang because i can see that she's going through aphase. i don't wanna give unsolicited assessment, too. plus, she's just came out of depression and trying to be stable again. well, that's just my observation.

what's good about finding new friends is that now i see and i am learning the differences (or levels) of friendships we keep. and now, i can appreciate the kind of friendship i have with Lea and Jen, including Kana and Mau na din, even more... even if i don't really like what happened to our barkada -- each of us just "slipped away". i don't even know what happened to Lea and Jen and what caused the two's fall out. i never got to know what their issues were when they were in UAE. pareho kasi silang baliw eh. parehong mahirap ispelengin. minsan mahirap pagsamahin yung ganon. if both of you could just lower your pride! lecheng pride yan.

..with Kana's and Mau's cases, all the understanding i have is with them. Kana has finally found someone who loves her the way she wants to be loved. same with Mau's case, and i think she's busy career-wise -- diverting her energy after her first miscarriage. inspite of our seperate lives, we still occassionally text each other when strange longings spring out. :p

my friendship with Gail and the rest of my USTe barkadas is also different. it's strengthened by many things, minus the drama. all of us individually went through so many hardships in life, but when we are together walang ka-drama drama. alam namin mga problema ng isa't-isa, napagku-kwentuhan naman namin lahat, pero never nangyari na may umiiyak sa sobrang kalungkutan. lagi lang pinagtatawanan ang mga problema. sinasabayan na lang ng inom tapos plakda na. ang titibay. ewan ko ba bakit ganun pero maganda na din yun.

oo nga pala.. congrats, Julie! hindi mo man lang kami sinabihan na nanganak ka na. three months naman bago mo ipinaalam. hehehe halos magka-name pa ang baby boys natin. buti hindi Jeremy ang ipinangalan natin sa kanila, noh? LOL =p (mababasa mo kaya 'to? :p)

Minsan
Artist : Eraserheads

minsan sa may kalayaan
tayo'y nagkatagpuan
may mga sariling gimik
at kaya-kanyang hangad sa buhay

sa ilalim ng iisang bubong
mga sekretong ibinubulong
kahit na anong mangyari
kahit na saan ka man patungo

Chorus:
ngunit ngayon
kay bilis maglaho ng kahapon
sana'y huwag kalimutan
ang ating mga pinagsamahan

at kung sakaling gipitin ay
laging iisipin
na minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan

minsan ay parang wala nang bukas
sa buhay natin
inuman sa magdamag
na para bang tayo'y mauubusan

sa ilalim ng bilog na buwan
mga tiyan nati'y walang laman
ngunit kahit na walang pera
ang bawat gabi'y anong saya

Repeat Chorus

minsan ay hindi ko na alam
ang nangyayari
kahit na anong gawin
lahat ng bagay ay merong hangganan

dahil ngayon
tayo ay nilimot ng kahapon
di na mapipilitang
buhayin ang ating pinagsamahan

ngunit kung sakaling mapadaan baka
ikaw ay aking tawagan
dahil minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan

>-(*^*)-<